Karina's Journal

[karina]

I have Hashimoto's and I feel AWFUL  i was in tears earlier today with the sheer misery of it.  I was going great on the AIP from Monday 11th August, and it all went wrong a few days ago when I had pasta and bread.  What an idiot!  Now I feel depressed and anxious and really achey and blaaggh.  I ate them because I was feeling really sorry for myself... I have stopped taking heavy painkillers so I am now in a lot of pain which then makes me nauseous and tired and unable to do much of anything. The reason I stopped the painkillers is to really see how the AIP was helping or what it was doing.  Plus I just hated being so reliant on them getting me through the day.  I am happy with that decision and do not want to go back to numbing myself (and killing my liver in the process!) so am going to try my absolute hardest to stick to that.  I will still take paracetamol and ibuprofen if I'm desperate.  I have an appointment with my Endocrinologist on 28th August - I think she is going to put me on Thyroxine (FINALLY!) so we'll see how that goes... but I am not even sure if I want to go on them.  I am very confused and quite sick and I just have to keep going and try my hardest, manage my stress, get enough rest, eat well... all whilst homeschooling my 2 sons, one of whom has special needs - easy! ha ha!

[karina]

So I caved in today and went to the doctor and got a bunch of painkillers - UGH! It's such a catch-22 - when I am in pain and feel awful I can't do the things I need to do to feel better, when I am on painkillers I feel like a failure and like I'm not doing the right things. I am a bit of an all-or-nothing person and I need to be a bit more moderate on some things... I have to understand that it's OK to take medicine when you're sick. Yes it would be ideal if my diet and lifestyle were perfect and I didn't need to take medicine, but like I said, when I'm sick I can't do that. When I'm in pain I don't sleep well and my stress levels go through the roof! I home-school my kids and my oldest son has a lot of health problems and special needs so I already have a lot of stress in my life... I don't need to be in constant pain too.

So... now that my pain is under control I will try my hardest to keep my diet AIP friendly and recover from a week of little-and-crappy-sleep and see how I go from there. Obviously the main goal is to be off all medication, to have a great diet, happy lifestyle, good sleep etc... but one step at a time!

[_hashimom_]

I homeschool, too, and also have Hashimoto's. I know that it is hard to have to deal with schooling, laundry, dishes, cooking from scratch, eating healthy...plus the symptoms that we feel throughout the day. Don't give up...just know there is someone else on this journey with you. :-)

[karina]

Oh _hashimom_ yaay another homeschooler Thank you so much for your lovely comment - it is much appreciated. It somehow feels better to know we're not alone (even thought we wouldn't wish this on our worst enemy!). K xx