Stell's AIP Journal

[Stell]

May as well do this here, so I don't bore my blog readers to death I already pointed them to the forum if they needed it.

So. Day 7. Been in pain and sleepy as heck and stuffing my face with salty things all week. Bacon, umeboshi, olive spread (SO GOOD on cucumbers!!) I tried throwing some pottery on the wheel but my hands were being stupid so I decided to roll with it and do something else for a while. Like sleep. 

At at least meals aren't giving me any trouble. I just need to make my meal cakes in bigger batches so I don't feel like I'm constantly cooking. They're great, but when you only get 4-5 meals per batch, they disappear quickly. I'm thinking quadruple batches should do the trick. 

I work today, after the kids leave for school. Hopefully my hands won't give out on me, as I have a feeling I'm going to be scooping out a LOT of cookie and scone dough today. 

Oh, and weight yesterday was 135. Size 12 jeans fit. Carrots and olive spread gave me a horrendous tummy ache, and I woke up at 4:30 with the beginnings of a migraine, so I took meds :/

I also started back on my mood supplements this week. 5-HTP and L-tyrosine. Low doses this time - one cap at a time, 5-HTP 4 times a day and Tyrosine 3 times (not too close to bedtime.) I tried taking my past dose of tyrosine (2 caps) and it made me feel nervous-stomach kind of wired and jittery. One cap seems to be fine, though. I think I need to add DLPA back in, as well.
(If anyone is reading this, I'm working from the book The Mood Cure, and it works AMAZINGLY well for depression, anxiety, and other mood disorders. Seriously. Spend the $10 and get it. It's life-changing.)

[Stell]

Day 9. Getting a touch bored with my meal cakes, so I had avocado and turkey slices for breakfast, which apparently did me just fine.
I remembered to take my supplements today, and have ordered extra for the kids.
Weight this morning was 132. No idea on pants size, because STRIPEY OVERALLS! But my size large Hershey's shirt was tight :/ Not cool.

I didn't have quite as much pain today as I did yesterday, though last night was a bit miserable and I didn't sleep well at all. I think mango might be on my NO list. I seem to recall reading that they are closely related to nightshades or something? Anyway, no more mango :/ Oh well. I'm not of tropical ancestry anyway - I shouldn't need that stuff to begin with!

I'm starting to be hungry at regular times again. This pleases me. Still don't want to cook anything, though.

Tonight's task is to finish glazing the board full of worry stones, and maybe clean up the workroom and get clay weighed out for throwing on Monday. I've slacked off on my practicing and need to get to it again. Gotta have something to put my pretty new purple glaze on!

[Stell]

Worked all weekend. Oh dear lord, the pain I am in this morning!! I think it's time to admit that I need to give up my juice drink when I go out with my friend on Sunday nights. Pineapple orange juice, I will miss you! I really do think that I am particularly sensitive to sugars, and the sooner I admit it, the easier it will be to stop fudging on that aspect. *sigh*

I've been on a turkey wrap binge. Applegate sliced turkey, Divina kalamata olive spread, bacon, clover sprouts, and an avocado wedge per roll. I like that it's easy and keeps me full for hours. Expensive, but whatever.

Today I have to get ink for my printer, pottery orders packed and shipped, my workroom cleaned, pottery photographed, and then take some down to my favorite café. If I can tear myself away from this Beats Music app that I've been sucked into this morning. ALL THE NINE INCH NAILS!!! So awesome, since my ex-husband either destroyed or got stolen my entire CD collection ages ago.

[Stell]

Day 13. I really hope this extreme fatigue goes away soon. I'm sure I'm not eating enough, but I'm too tired to cook. It's taking me days to recover from a work weekend, and I'm still sleeping a good portion of the day. And my to-do lists have been a joke. Next to nothing gets done most days. Haven't thrown any pottery in over a week, because I end up spending my energy on feeding myself, keeping the children in meals and clean clothes, and then I have to work again and wear myself out further.

I'd kick stuff if it didn't take so much energy. *grump*


Update: after all that grousing, I got up, ate, made polishing wax and hand salve, sanded and polished some pottery tools, waxed a pot, gloated about it a bit, went to get groceries....and only then realized that I was feeling a lot better. Been working on making pots ever since

[Stell]

I'm putting my strict AIP phase on hold again.

I've come to the conclusion that the job I took last month is seriously hindering my progress, as my body seems to be objecting VERY strongly to 8 hour workdays that start at 5 or 6 AM. I enjoy my job, and I enjoy getting so much done so early in the morning, but it's been over a month and my body hasn't adjusted in the slightest. I go to work, leaving my children home to care for each other, and then come home and just CRASH. I'm in pain, I'm exhausted, and all I want to do is sleep.

And, to top it off, I'm not eating properly. I work in an organic grocery and deli where I can get 50% off of all of the excellent food prepared in our kitchen, but I can't eat any of it because of AIP restrictions. So I end up just not eating, because I'm tired of my food, and then I go home and not eat anything because I'm too tired to cook.

So...screw it. The job is seasonal. I'll stay away from eggs, nightshades, refined sugar, and grains except for rice, and then re-evaluate in September. But for now....I'm sick and tired of feeling sick and tired....and deprived and feeling like nothing is going to get better anyway.

Pass me the cheese.

[_hashimom_]

Just reading your journal and I resonate with some of the things you mention.

I have added back some things on my strict AIP diet and now am getting some of old symptoms back and I 'm not really wanting to go back to the strict phase (I'm still pretty strict...I've just added eggs and nuts and occasionally dark chocolate). It's so hard to go back to strict when you have given yourself a little freedom. Sometimes I believe (and have read) that changing my diet alone is a huge part of the puzzle, but not the only part. For me, sleep is what gets me every time. I stay up late to get in some computer time and I pay the price the next day with how I feel.

I hope you have been able to get some relief from your symptoms and haven't been feeling "sick and tired of feeling sick and tired". Been there, too. Not fun.